Cello♥; i don't deserve you

christmas! CHRISTMAS! CHAAARISTTtMASSSSAASASAA!!! I'm finally here getting my bum back on the laptop to blog! :) Not my fault my own computer doesn't have internet connection anymore! Christmas is finally settling in for sadly, a day only. But gladly, in remembrance of Christ's birth! I love it!! Saw Bali yesterday in Acts with her huge bling bling microphone and a huge star on it. GOOD to see you! Life's good! What more can i say huh! I'm not a very busy person but yet i'm very busy. Can anyone get that? Hooookay! I AM Out!



Whoever has not watched or has not even heard of this poem, you've got to watch it! It's beautiful and so empowering that you just have to watch it. Turn down the volume if you find the song weird. Cause that's exactly what i did. (: ENJOY!

show me how to love like You have loved me;

Bali; its been goooooood!

I saw Michelle today! :D and it was good seeing her after such a long time, and i want her to post! so please please when you get your internet connection back, POST! haha we're going to go out next week or something to have one of those empire moments with charlotte! :D 

I've been updating over at SMELLYBUTT 

but overall my stay in Brunei has been GOOOOD :) 

LOTS OF LOVE,

Melissa :) 

Bali; You mean everything to me

It's 3:30PM and i just woke up, my sleeping and waking up times are pretty much all messed up. I'm already having a really hard time sleeping. I don't know if its a thing that i've developed in Singapore but i tend to think a lot. Not those thinking when you think about 'emotional' things but thinking as in 'I have to do something otherwise i'll feel like I'm wasting my time and feel bad at the end of the day therefore not sleeping' kind of thinking. I hate it. I can't concentrate when i want to relax, okay did that even make sense? But yeah. Praying even has been so hard for me, waking up simply at 7 to go for church is hard. God what's going on here? 

My exams and assessments are finally over. Well tomorrow I'll have to hand in one more, then I'm officially free. 

I met up with Yin and Mira yesterday at Bugis, believe me it was so good to see them. When i first saw them, they gave me endless hugs, I never got that many hugs (which wasn't more than 10) ever since i came to Singapore. I missed them so much, Mira was saying 'mel come back to JIS we miss you' and yeah, Yin was buying her tights and watching her just made me miss her the way she was all blurr and cute, haha you know Yin. But yeah, I can't wait to head down to Brunei and feel home again. 

As for now, i just wish things would get better, between friends, my relationship with God. I haven't cried in a while, and i don't think its a good thing. Because I used to be able to cry as in cry when something good happens to me, or just letting my feelings out, but now it seems like i've turned STONE COLD :( But i'm looking on the positive side that i'll: Cry (haha), repair my relationship with God and get along with friends again. I know for sure that it says in His word that we should wait on the Lord, even if it takes a long long long long long long long time, God's time is always perfect, and I'm holding on to that. :) 

Have a blessed day!

ps: Celle, I miss you loads, i haven't seen you online in a long time, but i know when i come back we'll catch yea! Hope all is good, I have a lot to tell you! :) 

Cello♥; tracing footprints

HELLO FROM THE MOUNTAIN TOP! Okay, i'm not on the mountain top. I'm just at home. BUT OKAY! LAME! Hahahaha anyways, I'm back! O's ended yesterday. Didn't feel much but i was a little relieved about everything. Now, the most pondered question ever for i think almost everyone who's done with exams..WHAT ON EARTH AM I GONNA DO?! Well i've got a few plans! :D

• Beach with 5CS class tomorrow! (but i'm not even sure if i'm able to make it! :S bummer)
• Out with Chelle, Ying and Rach on thursday afternoon.
• A.C.T.S.T.W.E.N.T.Y.N.I.N.E on friday!
• WEDDING on 22nd November!! yes mine. Nah its my cousin's! :D
• AND so many other plans that would probably blow up this whole laptop if i start firing them out because they're too hot to be revealed!! HAHAHA i'm insane. :)

But i'm definitely gonna help my mom with maintaining the house like a lot. It's something i have to get used to now! I WILL SURVIVE!

So far, i've been great! To all those who've been encouraging me to stay strong. BIG THANK YOU! I appreciate every single one of them. It's been improving except the part where it's not too easy moving around the place. I guess those who knows the story only will get what i mean. But i'm hanging on tightly to His promises. He's been my best friend and everything i have needed, am needing and will be needing. I'm slowly tracing back the familiar yet so unfamiliar footprints that's ahead. Even at this point, life can be so exciting. To know that a Saviour is holding my life in His hands. To know that no matter how far you go, grace will always come tracking you down and just wanting to give you so much more than we can ever ever imagine. God can put so much life in LIFE itself. He is greatly to be praised. FOREVER!

it's great. :)

by the cello♥

Bali; painted on my canvas cheeks

I never knew that my sister was such a good poet. I found out that she entered several contests and won a few, we only recieved the letter from www.poetry.com about a few months after she had passed away. I know her poems are 'emotional, depressing, etc...' but she has the talent to write good stuff! some how when i read her poems i feel like i know her even more, considering the fact that i wasn't close to her. 

For more of Rae's Poems click 'Here' :) miss you rae!

Anyway on a more reflective note (wah sound like what already) haha. Todays Mainstudy and Keyboard exam went alright! Although during Mainstudy, Tim asked me to sing keys that weren't in my range :( as in higher keys! So I had Bb harmonic minors, F# melodic minors. Note that i had to sing this without the piano okay! It was difficult, but did it with confidence and smiled alot :D Did pretty well overall! Keyboard was funnnnn, I played and sing 'Take me - Hawk Nelson" and he told me that I have to work on my left hand hohoho, and for sight-reading it was hilarious because I couldn't read notes as fast as grade 8 piano players, so taking my time, he said ' its okay, take it slowly, read it slowly '. I only managed to play 2 bars :( but its okay! Philip is one JOLLY keyboard teacher man, full of energy! loving it! 

I have yet to do Michael's Journals and revision on History of Performing arts (MCQ! but apparently a lot of the level 1's say that they are 'tricky' questions) then after that probably going to sleep or something! Tomorrows Choir exam! VALSE HERE I COME! 

hannay :) "suhsi sushi?"

(edit: i just watched the video and realized that blogger makes the quality of my macbook camera all icky -_-)

Good morning world! This refers to the post i blogged about staying in school to help friends finish their essays, was a really random video ' 4am what do you expect ' - Muzap hahaha

'the unknowing dance to the invisible tune.' - Rae :)

Bali; blisters on my heart

hello! 

There is probably one hundred and one things going on right now. Today's preview of Dante's Inferno production went alright, except for Jeremiah's bass amp turning off all of a sudden. Tomorrows Aural exam, and theatre production. I'm really tired lately, i think i've said that in most of my blogs, but you get what i mean right, its college, and it sure is tiring, stressful and pressurizing. I honestly have to say that i miss being able to talk to God for hours, now its just when i get home, i plan my time to study, do my work, then pray for 'awhile' only and i know so well that i should be making time. I know that this is going to blow over soon! That God is still here, watching me, with me.

I didn't get a chance to go to Nick Vujicic's Services, because of the whole theatre production thing, was really bummed out, but nevertheless I just gave the production all I had, the best. I'm thinking of lyrics to write but i can't seem to think right now. I guess you can say that I not feeling all that good :( but then God is Good all the time! and I'm really hanging onto the promises that He has made for me, the one that holds my future (the one i don't know where im heading to exactly, but he knows). I'm still going to praise Him, through this man, we're going to overcome this aite?! :) 

Readers: please pray for exams coming up! This week and next! :) thank you. 

I have thoughts about you,

Admitting it didn't get me far,

so with what i have, i run back to start,

turn away from the blisters of my heart.

I won't sleep,

with the lights on,

the rejection i've endured,

but the best is to know that i've been cured.

semiquaver, quaver, chrochet,

count the beats as you please,

but i dare you not,

speak as loud as my heart.

I have had thoughts about you,

thoughts that are now the past,

of something that i knew,

that would never last.

I'm running free,

catch me loose,

I'm racing back to start,

turn away from blisters of my heart 

haha that was random. Well yeah, I hope all is good from everyone. Tag Tag Tag! 

/major 2nd, perfect 4th. 

Bali; Wishes you a VERY VERY VERY good morning

Place: Lasalle College of the Arts

Time: 4:06am yes AM!

I've been in school ever since yesterday morning 9.30, after rehearsals ended, i went home, collected my laptop and came back here, and now I'm in one of the practice rooms, which i don't think we're meant to be in at this time. :) I finish my essay but just did a final run through and did Journals. Help Muzap with his whole essay as he hasn't started and read through Jeremiah's (whos has already gone home) Right now its only Me, Muzap and Rave. Both of them have gone down to 7 eleven to go buy food as we're all starving and i'm left with the Job of looking after everything. haha Rave hasn't finished his essay yet. Woah i'm talking like in point form, so weird! I'm going to wait till its 6 or 7 till i go home, since there aren't any buses right now, and taxis aren't that safe. I took a quick rinse in water just now to wake myself up a bit, and now i'm shivering! BAD MOVE. Great adventure no? :)

But it definately feels good that i could help a couple of struggling friends with their essay man, because right if we don't do this essay or FAIL this essay we will have to REPEAT THE WHOLE OF FOUNDATION COURSE. Do you read me? haha but yeah PTL! I've gone through this process and now i'm just helping others get through... Even though my stomach is grumbling till no tomorrow and i'm really tired, i have panda eyes, officially NOCTURNAL haha *inserts owl sound* K LAME! anyway I hope all the Form 5's back in Brunei are doing alright for their exams! 

Michelle: I miss you heaps, and i have loads to tell you after your free from the exams! ALL THE BEST with the remaining papers, you the bomb! :) 

my eyes can barely open...wanna see? :)

well i'm waiting for two of them to come back so i can eat and get energy. Then after that OFF THE FLOOR TO SLEEP. haha before I go off i'll list the upcoming events! 

1. Rehearsals everyday! 

2. Nick Vujicic!!!!!!!!! :D 4th November! 

3. Dante's Hell Production (once this is out of the way i'll be FREE)

4. REVISION! exams are start on the 10th November!

5. EXAMS! (hopefully its just 1 week!) 

That is all i think! Creative workshop too, so meetings etc! "BOY" am i tired! Hope all is well with anyone who reads! I don't think many do! haha oh well!

without music, life would be a mistake. 

loser loser,

double loser,

as if,

whatever,

get the picture,

duh.

HAHA people here are so crazy over this! 

Cheers! :)

CELLO♥ : new atmosphere

HELLO WORLD! Okay like many weird things have been happening. I've been really really busy. Been going out like almost everyday especially at night. It's hard walking around the house. O'Levels coming up on Wednesday! I dare not say im like super ready but i've been trying to grab as much as i can! But i'm gonna release it unto God all that i've studied yo! I believe He's gonna carry me through! I don't really want to go into details about the things that have happened but to sum it all up, life has always been what it's been. Bittersweet. A little bit of brokenness and happiness..blah blah blah. There are times where things get bitter and where things are awesome and great. But really through these bitter seasons, when you decide to trust God and His word.. you'll never fail to see the amazing thing God will bring out of it. Just stay faithful to Him and watch Him work in your life! So much the devil tries to break things apart but when you are aware of it, it's always best to cling to God because He binds us together tightly. Our God is amazing. :)

N:
now that You're near, everything is different. Cause i know i'm not the same.


by the Cello♥.

bali; spots & stripes

IF a tree falls down in the woods, 

but theres no one around to hear it, 

does it make a sound?

mind boggling much?

I had a lovely day :)

/I live for the cause of You 

less of me and more of You

Jesus.

maylee*

Bali; flip,flop!

I'm so beat tired, yet I'm not resting... My spirit is aliveeeee :)

I had a really rough day today, because: 

1) I had hardly any sleep because of daddy's snoring, and I had to been in school @10

2) Main study drama (click - for more info.)

3) Choir was alright although i had a headache :( 

Now i'm basically home with the fan on, windows open, music playing and relaxing... Waiting for mummy to come home with food, so i guess that should be goooooood (maybe even the highlight of my day! haha) Daddy is going back to Brunei tomorrow :( I haven't spent much time with him because i had school till 8pm yesterday, and he isn't home right now because he went for a meeting :( 

Okay so many sad faces! I have to stopppp it! I really hope my whole Main study issue clears up! Bryan, Edmund, Kaiyin, Shawn, Muzap have all been really supportive - telling me its going to be okay and suggesting ideas to clear it up :) I'm craving for donuts now, dang. Anyway it rained today, i had chicken rice for lunch, creative workshop is tomorrow, my body aches, i want a nice bubble bath :) The wind from the fan is blowing in my face and its making me tired, so i might doze off for awhile later just a little nap! 

I should be feeling much better soon~ and Michelle hasn't updated since the 'prayer' thing because shes been superly busy with Exams and what not! :) I'm sure she'll get back to us soon. 

Other than that, i'm off :)

/words fall short to tell You, 

yearnings that i feel, 

i want to worship You for REAL.

maylee*

edit!

Psalm 138:1-3

I will Praise you, O LORD, with all my heart; 

before the "gods" i will sing your praise.

I will bow down toward your holy temple

and will praise your name

for your love and your faithfulness

for you have exalted above all things

your name and your word.

When I called, you answered me;

you made me bold and stouthhearted.

After posting just now, i had a little worship time with God. And he gave me this verse and suprisingly enough i recieved a text from Chelle and it said:

'Psalms 138:1-3.

In the midst of everything, rejoice in our God....'

:) Sleep was good, 5-9.30? pretty much enough i should say? hehe I woke up because mummy said i had to eat dinner - and to my suprise dinner was yoghurt. I wasn't too hungry so

 yea, plus the yoghurt was pretty filling~ :) I think i'll be sleeping pretty late today. I know theres CSI on right now and Criminal Minds later :)

I've completed most of my work so far, need to do some summaries on productions i've watched =) and edit my essay and thats pretty much about it! Awww 'Realize' is playing on my speaker/ipod/whatchumacallits, and it reminded of Euodia's Sleepover! Where it took forever for them to learn a song, and Charlotte decided to buy a guitar, we spent the whole night (okay not that long) playing realize OVER and OVER again, i was getting sick of it but having so much fun watching them, and taking videos of them playing haha. I miss you!!!

okay thats all for and 'edit' :)

/A moment in Your presence

beats a thousand times else where :)

D6! 

maylee*

Bali; riding on the sky~

I'm on a blogging craze! Well I promised a good update right? :)

I just got back from Church! It was goooooooooooooooooooood! I finally got time to hang out with my CG, and meet the rest of them! I have yet to do a duet with Clara, she is in S.O.W (school of worship!) learning singing :) and she keeps asking me to sing! haha. Oh did I mention that I have a Melissa Lee in my CG? :) Shes SUPERLY TALL. I'll upload the crazy pictures we took today when i get them hehe. 

what else ah? My daddy is in Rome/Italy/Florence/ haha I don't exactly know where he is now, but not the point! I miss him sooooooo much :(. No correction. Me and Mummy miss him so much! we were actually talking about him just now on the way home, and this is how it conversation went :

On the train from Paya Labar to Kallang

Me: you know the other day when i was talking to daddy i asked him what 'type' of man will he allow me to get married too, then he said this " ANYTYPE! *pause* as long as he is CHINESE " 

Mum: HAHAHAHAHAHA 

Me: then i responded to daddy, " WHAT! why! what if i want to marry an angmo? "

Mum: isn't your daddy just so cute? 

Me: daddy said " I want the generation to be all chinese! BUT its okay if you don't marry a chinese, daddy will still love you, but then deep down inside i'll be a bit sad "

Mum: HAHAHAHAHAHHA 

Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA... uh mummy, did we miss our stop?

MRT: DING DONG 'LAVENDER' 

Me&Mum: *looks at each other* HAHAHAHAHHA *walks to the door* 

we alighted the mrt, laughing and walked across to the train opposite to take back to kallang! it was so embarrassing, people in the train knew that we missed our stop! haha but nothing better than laughing with my mum, she was pinching me and poking me when we were waiting another 4 minutes for the next train. :) 

Okay that was random, sorry! Oh guess what I had for dinner! I ate Lychee Yoghurt from slurps and scoops, it was DE-LI-CIOUS! :) Melissa spilt her toppings when she got back to her table, and she was so angry/depressed haha we kept on saying 'itsokay!!!' she was picking her toppings with chopsticks! hahaha. Saw Joyce and she was telling me about how she had this sudden urge to 'fart' everywhere in the kopitiam, i was laughing so much that i snorted ._. haha and she laughed even though i was trying to hide it! haha 

I'm rambling on and on about my night haha. OH Von if you happen to read this i bought MEIJI chocolateeeeee and i miss you :). OH YEAH, i was going to pay right then the cashier said ' sorry but do you have 5cents? ' then i said ' oh sorry i don't ', then she pulled this face that said 'and what do you want me to do about it?' so i was kind of annoyed. So I said ' Its okay, you can keep the change :) ' and left. hahaha my 7 eleven adventure! 

Meiji chocolate!

I'll end her, long enough yes?

cheers! Great is Your Faithfulness! 

maylee*

Bali; would you like a plastic wonton?

Good morning/Good afternoon!

I just got up from bed, after getting my long waited sleep :), it felt good! I'm waiting for my mummy to come home to have lunch and off we go for service! I've got loads to tell Yinglin when i see her :) Anyway, school's been pretty much alright. Handling things bit by bit! Although its getting a bit more tiring each day. But it's okay.

Yoga happening: I was so tired, that during most of the poses we had to do, I fell asleep. When we had to do the 'corpse' pose, i went off dreaming :). Yes dreaming, I dreamt of sushi and I have no idea why :)

My last class gamelan was moved ._.' to 5-6, so after theory which ends at 3 more or less, I have to wait 2 hours. for my next class... and being so late in the afternoon trust me you are so tempted to GO HOME and nap. So in the end Me and Ivan chillaxed at the frass, later Muzap and Vicky joined us. 

It's 2:46! I need to get ready, so i'll hopefully update soon tonight or something. I'm going out with my mummy and uncle tomorrow to clean Rae's grave; fill em with colourful pebbles! =) I'm saving up for christmas shopping! Its almost the end of the year. 2009 is coming! So fast so fast! nyehehe

Bali; raindrops keep falling on my head~

HELLO WORLD! (grand much?) haha 

I slept really late last night, so right now my body's physically tired, but my spirit is alive! :) hehe I have loads of things happening for me right now:

SCHOOL: 

- Final Essay Due in about 4 weeks! 

- Meeting with the Theatre Arts student in Level 3 

- Exams in about 6 weeks! (so many things to prepare!!!)

- Choir Presentation: Next week!

- Creative Workshop : Timelessness (Haven't planned with group yet! eeks!)

- Understanding Performance (Theatre) Essays due in about 5 weeks!

- Mainstudy, Mainstudy, Mainstudy...

- Drama mama with Tim about mainstudy!

PERSONAL: 

- ITS THAT TIME OF THE MONTH GIRLS!!!!! haha

- Euodia, Asha, Karen coming to Singapore! (November something! haha)

- Christmas shoppingzzzzz!

- SAVE UP! $$$

HOG! (Heart Of GOD!) 

- ASIA CONFERENCE!

- Nick Vujici! (4th/5th November!) 

- Rev. Kong Hee (7th/9th November)

So loads of things are coming up! And I'm EXCIOTED! :D I stayed up till 4 yesterday because my spirit wouldn't sleep! haha It was just JAM-PACKED full of excitement of what's going to happen! :) Please continue to pray for my school yes? For exams too! Thank youuu

Well i'll update once in awhile yes? =) other than that! I'm off for a shower and some relax time :) - before I catch on some work. oh and yes did I mentioned that today Aural was cancelled? When I was running for class at 9.55, when I got the message -_-, i could've slept till 12! Please stop canceling our classes :( I hate the make-up classes because they're so troublesome to organise! Oh well, least i got my JKO donuts early in the morning with Anne. I only had donuts, take away hot chocolate today, and it lasted me the whole day! awesome :D

cheers! 

maylee*

CELLO : PRAYER!

GOOD MORNING PEOPLE! It is now 2.03 AM! AND SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO PEOPLE OUT THERE! You won't see or hear me but whatever! HEHE! Anyways, a HUGE congratulations to MELISSA LEE in being assigned as a leader in her school batch in Lasalle! AND IS THE YOUNGEST AMONG THE BATCH! Praise God! He's so faithful as we remain faithful to Him! :)

So I'd just like to ask a little prayer request from all of you out there for Mel! God has opened a door for her in school. And now she wants to use this opportunity to the fullest! As a leader, she plans to reach out to her friends and really wants to see revival in Lasalle! She plans to invite her friends to a service with Nick Vujicic speaking! :D HOW EXCITING IS THAT!?!??! It's definitely a message that people would not want to miss! We believe that her friends will be so impacted at that service! I just want to ask that you'd pray for her, encourage her or something! She'd definitely want to hear from you :D! Pray that as she sows seeds in that school, God will reap a HUGE MASSIVE HARVEST! That through her, many will come to Christ! :) HEHEHE!

We'll really appreciate your prayers! HEHE! And may THE AWESOME GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU! AND A BIG THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO PRAY YEAH! :) HEHE

oh cocoa pebbles. :)


going so far beyond the music to know You so much more;

MEL, You have what it takes to be a history-maker. Believe it ;)

New URL!

Hey readers! 

Me and Michelle decided to change the URL :) for no specific reason! HAHA i realised changing the URL means we can't have our older posts. So we'll be keeping balijecello! We'll try to update more and more here! :) for older post visit: -

mel&chelle ii

Well I had an eventful day you can say. Woke up pretty late to find that my mum wasn't feeling too well so she cooked me Mee goreng for lunch? But I went out with her after that to Great Wall to support my where my uncle is working. Ate Pizza, Lasagna and had really relaxing lavander tea! It was good food! Great wall is really deserted in the afternoon around 2, but according to my uncle a lot of celebrities go there to shop and eat or something... and I discovered He has quite a wide range for fashion hmm? 

Other than that, his food was gooooood! Did a little bit of shopping, bought shaving cream!! :x haha and a new bag :)

Funky-lious!

We've both got eyebags :(

Momaeh wanted me to try contacts :)

Purple contacts :)

When do you ever find an empty mrt station? @ the airport hehehe :x

thats all! till next time,

I'll be on a diet, no fast food, more fruits and vegetables :D! 

cheers!

maylee

ps: oh no, i have yoga this friday! time to STRETCH!